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Thursday, 24 September 2009
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ever since tat incident happened..everything has never been the same anymore...recently have alot of quarrels....very pissed..dunno y..now..i dun realli understand him ....things i wanted to do..he won jus company and jus make me happy..he wil just reply with an answer NO or DUN WAN!!!! for instance... asked him to company me go swim..he say dun wan...if his buddies jio him..no need say.he sure go.... just now told him sun im goin sentosa with my sibling and my bro gf...so i asked him along..hopping for an different answer but his answer is DUN WAN!!! expected...really dun understand...why cant he company me jus for once...in the future when he start installation...we won have time to meet up at all...realli very upset..why ppl bf wil company them if they asked..why cant my bf be like tis....all the 1st time moment with him think already ended few mth ago ba.....jus now at his place shouted at me twice infront of the family..dun even give me some face...damn upset....make me so pai sei....also nt say i dun wan to throw away the water i drank..i wan wait til we go hm den take go down throw..cos i dun dare to open his kitchen rubbish dump ...cos i scared gt roaches.. then his mum scold him..and he shouted at me say everytime make him gt scold by his mum...realli unhappy....why cant he scold me only left we two person..why have to make me so paisei infront of his family..like im a very lazy person..eat dun wan to throw.... den he say i give lan jiao attitude again.... sometimes i have tis thinking..am i tat sucks....he nw also dun realli love me like b4 after tat incident....everything drop....jus nw help me install chinese languange..so he can read when he surf web...and he didnt even say thank you to me...like he dun realli appreicate it...everytime i jus wan him to say thankyou got so hard meh!!! he ask me dun compare his buddies with me!!! speechless!!!! to him forever im unreasonable.....attitude...hopeless to him.... and he keeping on saying break to me...really really upset....what should i do????
Sunday, 20 September 2009
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why cant i be a happy gal????? dun think is a good yr ba.. by right should be happy..cos tml goin swim with my siblings...but im nt happy...know tat baobei is not working..so asked him to join in..but end up...he dun want... say wad dun wan see me wear like dumpling like tis... sadded!!! nv go swim with him b4...jus want to have some gd memories with him...and have alot of 1st time with him..but..he say dun wan means dun wan....yesterday i tell him mon go the food fair ..den he reply say wad think he very rich izzit....everytime like tis...ltr nv go i show attitude..so i drop the idea..jus nw come tell me....tml i dun wan go izzit...sometimes dun realli know wad he thinking...wad also he says de....today finally start my idea of lossing weight....as he already xian qi me of being fat..and if i dun wan start to lose..think sooner or later im goin to loss him...haii... do alot of exercise today...cycle on the exercise bicycle...after tat do skipping and hula hoop...and decided to go swim 3 times a week...and goin on diet too.....hopefully its work...didnt go out for almost one week le..cos no money..and no work... and finally tml is goin out..bt is goin swim and meet him only..tats all...after tml..wil be at hm again....think bill have to wait til nov den can pay...cos goin attachment on 13 oct.. haven call tat lady ...cos yesterday she didnt pick ..so tml me and my fren goin to try again..why cant tat person call us...rather den we call her..hahahaha...much easy .... bad mood bad mood!!! anna told me her future husband goin to propose to her on her bday next yr..and they together nt even 1 mth..den she ask abt me..den tell her..nv think so far..cos i dun think me and him is stable rite nw..after tat incident... can feel tat the way he treat me rite nw is different..promise david to visit him after my exam..bt now ..i nv..cos no money...=[ hope he wil understand ba...sometimes feel so loney..dunno why...update again ba....
Saturday, 12 September 2009
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drinking rite now ..as very upset....feel like crying....bt dun wish anyone to see or ask me anyth....have i do anyth wrong???? think in the future baobei doesn want to bother me anymore le ba....monday anniversary..think tis mth for sure nt meetin....tue his court session..think after company him go ..i go hm myself..dun think he wil want to see me.... goin 7th mth...inbetween..almost every mth for sure have someth happened jus before our anniversary....not i wan to do things u dun like...i jus wan find fren to slack only..though he like me..bt i dun like him can already ....doesnt matter...now i say wad also rubbish..he won listen to any explaination de...so i dun wan to say le...wan to drink til drunk..bt cant...think goin to drink cough medcine ltr..so i can slp...heart realli pain....argh.......my relationship life realli sucks.....im sucks too.....update til here ba..nt goin to write le..dunno wad to say also...dunno who to talk to ....
Monday, 31 August 2009
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so lazy to update blog nowdays...tired...haii..exam juz around the corner...next week...omg..so fast...=[ dun think i wil do well.... tis week wil be revision lesson..omg...lazy to go sch..juz wan to go rashid class wil do...cos sure very difficult de...wed goin to take my class test...cos last week didnt go...heard tat is very very difficult....not in a good mood actually...pay gt delayed... somemore tis whole week dun think can be able to meet baobei...damn sad...goin to 1 week tat didnt meet him le..keep workin and workin.... everyone include him,ask me to be understanding.. wad can i say??? not i dun wan to be understand...everytime give me fake hope...who won upset....haii..realli dun wish to say anyth....since he so busy...i shall nt fan him again abt meeting up...tired liao.....somemore tml i no sch...wad a sian day...now beside sch straight go hm...bored!!!!! somemore fren also not alot....wan go out also dunno wan to find who.... sad sad sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! after exam think muz find time to visit david...1 more hr his bday le...cant greet him straight..have to write to him...dunno hw to he goin to celebrate inside..dun think can celebrate ba....so lonely lor..2 yrs bday have to celebrate inside...haii..hope he doin gd ba.... stop til here ba...
*happy 21st Bday to david*
Monday, 17 August 2009
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wad a bored monday...went school for lesson at 11am... afternoon mr rashid phase test..omg..his paper look so confused..but end up... its like so easy..no need to follow the paper....haha.... after school went town with buddy haida and hema...but hema went work..so didnt go walk with us...went far east to eat den went ion to look for hema...ate the ice cream..yummy yummy...headed home affter tat....
dun think i can meet baobei frm today onwards...tml he have a lawyer appointment...afternoon tell me he dun wan go work tml..end up ..juz now called me said he onli can meet me at 1 plus or 2...cos need to work...stil tot he could come fetch me frm sch..as my ez link goin no money le...den he stil say after tat maybe stil need to go back work...disappointed..decided nt to go with him..no point ba...after appointment i have to go hm myself..cant even pei him..damn sad...after his start his job...cant even meet often...not like last time..damn sian lo...think tis whole week dun even get to see him already....haiz...super upset...everytime give me a emptness happiness....think goin slp soon..so sian..tml have to wake up early as well..shall update again...
love baobei forever..muacks
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